It took me five years to actually seek the help I needed for what I thought was chronic depression accompanied by anxiety and panic attacks. It then took another five years before I met with a psychiatrist and learned that I have borderline personality disorder. 10 years of suicidal thoughts, panic attacks, and intense mood swings. It wasn't always easy, but I'm proud to still be here. Now I'm learning to live with BPD, and seeking the best treatment option for me.